aye aye aye

its 2008! fuck.

so its a new year (again), and im right back where i was many times, many years, before. im fighting the same demons, feeling the same butterflies...who's said that love can end? id certainly like to meet them because i think they were full of shit.

you see him, you dont. you see him, you dont. you're up, you're down, you're all around. its really a goddamn rollercoaster. i guess its kind of fun - in a dark, sick way. and many of us have been here before. we know it, remember it, can taste the feelings we felt the first, second, third time....yet we go there once again. we embroil ourselves in it. we're like hot pink pigs in a mud pit, rolling around in it and getting all dirty.